'Broken Brakes (Candle Song)'
Don't blame it on me, I was just passing through
I'm nothing special, and I didn't come to save you
So you must have rocks in your head if you cling to me
Well, I guess what I'm trying to say is
I'm no gender warrior!
I'm just a general worrier
And I mean nothing in the real world
I'm ignored…isolated…lonely…
And there's only so much stress
I can bear, before I relent
To emotional atrophy
Oh, I know what it's like to feel half-unpacked
But this is forth, then back; forth, then back
And all I know is that I didn't come here for this
Don't blame it on the sunlight…
Don't blame it on the moonshine…
Well, it's disgusting and it's ugly
And it fucks you up –
But no, that can't be it!
And all that's left for me
Is to light a candle in your memory
Because I'm losing my grip
And though I've tortured myself
And diminished my own mental health
Others tell me I'd do well to remember
The pain and humiliation
You've heaped upon your supposed salvation
For my failed attempts
To arrest your descent –
Because you're going down, whatever
Well, I've no strength even to
Strike a match for you
Which I guess means I've fallen on my face
As any use of any sort…
But it doesn't matter anymore
Because I've walked away.
© M.A.Tovey 2010